I am SO excited I can barely contain myself. I’ve got a glass of shiraz next to me to keep me steady (though it’s a tiny bit cold). Here goes.
I saw the lovely Dr Stephen Houston, my consultant, this afternoon. He asked me how I’d got on since the first chemo on 18 November. Then he examined me (I am getting used to men and women I barely know having a good feel of the ol’ knockers now). And…the lump in my lymph node in my armpit has DISAPPEARED! And the big one in my breast is ALMOST GONE!!!! After ONE chemotherapy session! Oh. My. God. How amazing is that? That’s some powerful shit. No wonder I felt a bit rubbish!
I’ll just pause for a second so you can take that in. The combination of drugs I am on to treat my breast cancer is so effective that after one of six planned sessions, my tumours are, as Houston-We-Don’t-Have-A-Problem put it, ‘melting away’.
He’s usually cool as a cucumber, but he actually said. ‘Wow. That’s amazing. I’ve never seen anyone respond so much so quickly.’ Yay for me, A* patient or what? I half jokingly said, that’s all the visualisation I’ve been doing, and he said ‘no it isn’t, there’s been studies done on the effects of visualisation on your immune system and it makes no difference’. So I said: ‘No, it’s not that: I’ve been visualising the chemo and the other drugs being strong, powerful, beneficial things that my body will allow to work, rather than seeing them as scary and toxic’. And even the arch-scientist agreed that that is important.
He also said that he was really pleased when he saw I’d randomly drawn the particular combo of drugs I’m on for the trial, because the guy who invented Herceptin prefers to pair it with carboplatin chemo as they seem to work more synergistically together than other chemo drugs. This was good to hear, and a bit weird, because for some reason I was overjoyed when my Wonder Nurse Celia told me which arm of the trial I would be having. I had just felt drawn to it, no idea why, but it seems things really are happening perfectly for me.
I asked what the implications were for the plan for my surgery to include removing my lymph nodes under my arm, and he said they’d have to monitor it as we go along, but it’s possible not as much will have to be removed as originally assumed. Hurray! This is potentially great news too, as it might mean a quicker recovery period. (I’d started to fret this week about the surgery as my gorgeous friend N’s mummy has just had her underarm lymphs out and can’t drive for six weeks, and I just cannot see how things will work with the kids at school and nursery and Andy at work in another town. But still. Let’s take each thing as it comes).
Tigger then bounced out, very happy with the results, and all of a sudden I felt really emotional and had to have a Special Celia Hug in the consulting room. Once I stopped welling up, I felt elated, and haven’t stopped smiling since. I came home to tell DH the news and he was in tears. It’s the first bit of really positive news we’ve had for a few weeks now, and it has given me new energy and impetus for the next round of treatment this Friday. It’s working! I will be free of cancer!
There’s still the tricky matter of the pre-cancerous stuff, which doesn’t take any notice of chemo and will still need to be kicked into touch with a scalpel, but hey. The Big C, as so many of my fantastic friends and family have said from the start, has messed with the wrong chick this time. (I’ve never referred to myself as a chick before, that’s odd). And the awesomeness of this development won’t stop the nasty side effects (which are starting to include the dreaded hair loss, of which more next time, gentle reader).
But let’s say it again: the cancer is melting away, just as I have been seeing it so clearly in my mind. The drugs DO work! I am toasting my consultant, my nurse, the rest of my medical team, the whole St Luke’s cancer centre in Guildford, and everyone else on Team Pinchy. Cancer, my friends, is being well and truly f%cked. Shiraz me up.
Congratulations! What wonderful news xxx
Go team pinchy. Pouring a large glass as I type (well, popping off to get one in a sec for sure).
Bloody marvellous update!!!! So so chuffed for you xxxxx
Ohhhhhhhhhhh u are the bravest most wonderful lady! That’s such fabulous news and u deserve it. sending u huge huge huge positive thoughts and lots of love and shirazzy hugs.xx
That really is great news – Fuck Caaaancer is what I say!
Your story affected me so much that I went for a mammogram yesterday – knowing that all the painful squeezing was worth it in order to be checked properly. I’m really, really pleased for you! Di x
Wow! I’m so, so pleased to have inspired one person to have gone for a mammogram! It’s so important to catch this stuff early. Brilliant. That’s made my day even more special! xxx
That really is a-ma-zing! Large glass of shiraz in hand. S xxx
Cheers gorgeous! My cheeks hurt I’ve been smiling for so long! xxx
Fabulous. Am so pleased for you.
That has made my day! Bloody fantastic news…seriously awesome!
Absolutely fantastic news!
Much much love and a celebratory clink of my hot chocolate.
I know I don’t know you but I felt a burst of very real pride for you reading this. You are amazing xx
Aw, thanks honey, that’s so sweet of you! xx
Thanks everyone for celebrating with me! xxx
I’d like to say unbelievable but truly, with someone like you, nothing is impossible.
Love you but please, please stop making me cry! xxxxx
PS: stop playing with your hair………xxxxxxxxx
Utterly awesomized by your bodaciousness and bodacity at zapping caaaaancer.. ALREADY.
You better watch out Dorothy, because they’ll think YOU are the real Wizard of Oz.. People will be wanting to be touched by you. Hmmm… I foresee “Pinchypants Pilgrimages” to meet the wonderful Maja.
Well done you, well done docs, well done drugs, well done visualisation, well done Shiraz.
Ding dong the wicked witch is dead (or at least fading very fast!)
I knew there was a reason I had to have a glass of wine this evening, even tho’ it;s wednesday, – now i’ve read this it all makes sense, – toasting you, well done team pinchy.
Congratulations! Now you can start to get into the festive spirit, starting with that glass of shiraz!
Yay, yay, yay! I am SO pleased for you. x
Huraah! Great news!
Brilliant. That is amazing.
Wow! Thank you for sharing this. Bizarre and wonderful that I should stumble upon this today. My mum is at St Lukes right now having her first chemo. I agree, cancer can F%CK OFF! I have no idea what to do when she comes home tonight but i have read through your blog and thought of a few things I can do that might help. thank you so much.
Thanks so much for your comment – that’s serendipity for you! I was probably metres away from your mum yesterday! The team there is fantastic, she’s in amazing hands and I really have everything crossed for you all for a speedy recovery for her. xxx
[…] Amazing News! […]